| So I was laying in bed, bored as usual, and I decided to update my LJ. I was talking to Megan earlier today and she mentioned creating a new LJ and pointed out the fact that I haven't updated or posted anything on my LJ in almost 2 years. That's a long time. So I thought about it and she made a good point, Livejournal is better for venting and updates with life and shit like that. I usually always use my Myspace (www.myspace.com/mrwho909). Check it out. Nothing special. Anyway...
Hmm... So I'm in my second year of college, still at JC. It's going to take me another year to finish the MLT program I'm in, a year longer than I expected.. It really seems like each semester gets more and more difficult. I can't wait for this to be over. I expect to be finished with my Associate's degree program in summer of '08 and then go to work somewhere, and when I start my job, I intend to move into a house. Megan and I are already looking around... Not seriously yet, more just for ideas and locations... Basically trying to figure out everything that's involved in that process. Other than that, we are really doing everything we can to save money. After working for a few months and finding a place to live, I would like to pursue my BS degree. I've been looking around and Auburn University has a 2 year online program for MLT to MT. It's about 10,000 for the 2 year thing and a little bit more if you decide to make it 3 years. But it's also a huge pay raise from MLT to MT so I definitely think it's worth it. It would definitely be kinda difficult to work and do the online thing but I can do it, and it would really make life easier for us.
Megan and I are doing really good. We are doing better than ever. She really surprises me everyday with how much she is growing up.. Maturity/responsibility-wise.. If that makes sense. Initially it felt like I had to remind her to do alot of things and do alot to help her with bills and money management, but now she pays everything on time and isn't having any money issues. She's actually doing better than I am with the saving. She definitely knows how to keep me happy too. The little jokes and naive faces and crazy little laughs always put a smile on my face. We've been together for nearly 2 years and a majority of that time was spent with her living with me. We never had any problems with it, and I never get tired of being around her or seeing her so that's definitely a good thing. I look forward to seeing her everyday. ^_^ She's the shit.
The family is doing pretty good too. Dena just had her 18th birthday and still gets treated like she's 16 from my dad. When I turned 18 I had all kinds of freedom; never had to tell them where I was or if I was coming home. Which makes sense because being 18, I could have left at any time. Well Dena has no freedom.. She still has a curfew, still has to ask to go places, still has to tell them where she's going and when she'll be back. I think it was sunday that she actually got in trouble for being home about an hour late. She's 18 years old dammit! Give her an effin break. Dad may not realize that the more he treats her like that, the quicker she'll leave. But oh well...
I don't really know what else to say... Life's great. Rainy days aren't fun. Windy days blow. Tornados suck. Peace out. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | Fall Out Boy- Sugar, We're going down | | Subject: | Rally School | | Time: | 04:20 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_boy/working.gif) accomplished |
|
| | Well I'm sitting in Florida at my grandparents house trying to think of something to do. The girls want to walk to the store which is about a 30 to 45 min. walk away. Rally school yesterday was bad ass. I got to drive on the skid pad doing all kinds of techniques. Pavement course and off road courses both kicked ass. I got alot of it on film so I can remember it and show some people if interested. Going over to the beach tomorrow. Hopefully I will be able to skimboard quite a bit. We get our own room which is cool. I don't really know what else to type. This was more or less a short segment of my thoughts thus far. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Guitar strumming in the background | | Subject: | Time to update.. | | Time: | 03:00 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_boy/happy.gif) jubilant |
|
| It was recently brought to my attention that I haven't updated my LJ in about nine months. It isn't so much that I haven't found the time, but more so just because I have grown out of it. Well if the last update was in October, then where should I start. I can't remember everything that has happened. Halloween passed as well as Thanksgiving and Christmas; all of which were celebrated to the fullest. The year 2005 brought about new feelings. Feelings of uncertainty, feelings of anxiety.. The relationship fell apart which really wasn't a bad thing. I am much happier with life right now. I began my last semester of high school, where I was first introduced to Darth Vadis (Mrs. Perkins). Senior English was quite the experience. The first test was a reality check.. a 57 didn't sit too well with me.
As of April 1st, I have been going out with Megan Simmons. Every aspect of that relationship is fantastic. She makes me happier than I thought I could be due to many bad past experiences. As the days quickly flew by, me and the rest of the class of '05 began to realize that it was nearly the end. College days, spirit olympic class trips, senior skip days and senior skip days began to fall into place as many seniors taking Mrs. Perkins/Lishman's senior english class realized that they should do everything in their power to be exempt from the final exam. Senior pranks were planned and initiated as the last day of school for the seniors went by. The last day was a very emotional time for myself and many others who had been at St. Martin for 13 years.
Summer was finally here. Our last countdown began, the final week until graduation. My final week was spent swimming, working, and spending time with family and my girlfriend. As May 24 finally arrived, we all prepared for a night that will serve as a milestone in our lives. Graduation practice snailed by and many people frantically prepared for what would occur that night. 6:15pm all the seniors were at the colosseum. By 6:30 we were all in line to march out to Pomp and Circumstance. 7:00 the ceremony began. I was so happy to be in that seat. As my name was called to walk across the stage, I couldn't help but have the largest grin on my face. I shook the administrators hand, accepted my diploma, moved the tassle, and returned to my seat. I received many cheers which only made it more memorable. After a short meal at Denny's with family, we all went home to change for a night that certainly wouldn't be over until the next morning. The night could have gone a little better than it did, but in the end, I think that everyone went home satisfied.
After a quick shower and the packing of a few bags, we loaded the truck and were on our way to North Carolina. The family went to celebrate Andrea's graduation ceremonies yesterday, and today we are celebrating Andrea and my 18th birthday. I guess from here I can only sit back and see where life takes me. We have a few more plans still ahead for this summer, but in August I will begin college so wish me luck.
I guess I will attempt to update this thing again from time to time, but now it is about time for my party to start. I leave you all with a farewell and a good luck for all future endeavors. Until next time.. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | You know what is confusing and just plain out funny.. How someone can sit there and repeatedly state in there journal or to a person directly that they are going to drop this and that they are glad with the decision they made, but then constantly restate the fact that they're over the person and continues to post something that is related to the issue. I guess it's just me but it does get old kinda fast. I realize you tried talking to me, but look.. why would I want to talk to someone who said straight to my face that they hate me and never want to talk to me ever again? I already told you, I don't feel bad about my decision, and personally am satisfied with life right now. Nothing stressful or annoying in my mind. Another thing I found quite humorous was when you told me that what you wrote wasn't true and that it was intended to make me not feel bad for breaking up with you, but then when I tell you that what you planned.. actually happend.. you call me an asshole. That seems somewhat hypocritical to me, but who knows.. maybe I'm mistaken. Anyways.. I'm not out to attack you or put you down.. It's just you need to make up your mind or something. Either drop it when you say you are going to drop it, or don't say so. If you tell me that you did something with specific intentions in mind and then that actually happens, don't get all pissed because things don't always work out for the best. I'd be willing to talk to you if it's kept civilized, but don't be expecting something crazy to happen. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Senses Fail - Buried a Lie | | Subject: | Home on a school day | | Time: | 11:43 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_boy/sleepy.gif) blank |
|
| Well today is supposed to be a national holiday that everyone gets off from school on, but due to Hurricane Ivan which wasn't much of an issue for this area on the Gulf Coast, we have to spend our scheduled off days back in school. On the contrary, I am off because exams were conveniently scheduled on the same day, and I am exempt. So I won't be in school today or tomorrow.
It doesn't really feel like anything all that special considering I woke up around 11 only to take a shower, eat breakfast, and realize that I have no reason to go to the mall today, but instead go tomorrow. I need to get a pink shirt for the spirit week "Pink shirt day" in consideration of breast cancer and for those suffering.. I believe that's the reason. I need to go get something to wear for "Flashback day" where you can dress from a variety of decades. I think I'm going to go with the late 70's through mid 80's. Not sure about that yet, but Friday is "Blue and Gold day" as always. I'm sure I have a blue or gold shirt somewhere in my room. I was just notified by Remelyn that our negatives for photography are due by Friday which is dumb as hell because that means that I have to finish them before Thursday so we can process them in class on Thursday to have them for Friday. A sneaky little trick that Mrs. Heise tried to play on us. I don't think it'll be all that hard. I just have to get a picture from bug's eye perspective, a bird's eye perspective, and a motion picture. Considering the fact that I have 24 exposures on that role of film. It shouldn't be difficult finding 3 good ones.
Tonight I have to work, but it shouldn't be all that bad because it's a Monday. We are never busy on Mondays. Tomorrow I don't have to work and I don't have to go to school so that will be the day that I go take care of things that have to be done.
I'm beginning to realize that there isn't much of a point to staying home from school when there is no one else around to talk to. But oh well, I can still hold it in front of everyone else's face.
My Chemical Romance is playing on the tv in the background. They are pretty good.
My dad is supposed to be coming home today. Hopefully he and my mom will go to pick up my bumper and fender so we can put my car back together. I would really like to drive it again, but my dad made me kinda nervous when he said something about those rims not fitting. I think they'll work.. they better work. I just want the car back. I miss it. I know that my sister's car is the same thing as mine but it just isn't the same.. The cherry coated civic vs. the nice white one.
I've been playing my guitars alot lately. I'll just sit down and end up putting them down like two hours later. I'm sure anyone else who plays can agree that when you get into it, you lose track of time. I used to not be able to get into it, but now I actually know how to play some stuff so it makes it worthwhile.
I need to get a new job. I'm not saying that Dominos is a bad place to work or anything cause the people there are all really cool.. well most of the people there. Just about all but one. But anyways.. I've been there for almost 8 to 8 1/2 months and I'm still only making minimum wage. The 5.15 just isn't cutting it anymore. I don't really have any bills or anything to pay for, but I would think that after that long of working there I should get some kinda raise or something. That new theater is supposed to be finished before the end of this year. I would really like to get a job there. Basically guaranteed a better wage, more enjoyable environment. The only food I'd really ever end up dealing with would probably be the concession stand. The hours may not be quite as flexible, but I think that would be something that I could deal with.
I can't believe how close I am to being finished with High School. Sure it's not even half way through this year but still. With how everything is adding up and how so many deadlines are quickly coming closer, it just makes it feel like it's just about over. I haven't quite decided what I want to do for college, but as of now, my number one option is probably to go to MGCCC for the first two years. It would help financial issues for one thing. It would be easy for me to get a scholarship there. I'd only have to bring up my ACT score one point to recieve a full scholarship. With what I already have, I can get at least a half scholarship. I would probably stay at the house which would take care of room and board, and food. Some expenses that can add up. I don't know for sure what I'll be going for, probably something along the lines of Xray tech. My dad mentioned it recently and it sounds promising. My one concern is that if I do that then I'll have distractions and stuff around the house. Like my sisters issues, or her friends. People wanting to talk to me or hang out. I don't know, it just kinda bothered me. I also considered USM but I don't know enough about that yet.
Friends are still there, some more distant than others, and I'm always meeting someone knew, or talking more with someone I already knew but didn't talk to all that much. I don't know, somethings are becoming more enjoyable than others. Sometimes I enjoy meeting new people but then there are times when I just want to kinda keep a close knit circle. I don't like putting up with that High School "drama" crap that everyone seems to go through. I just don't really see a point to it. Too much drama and things going on that affect you can basically act as a blindfold to the things that should actually be your first priority. I'm not too sure where I'm going with this, but I'm sure it'll become evident to me one day. Sometimes I wonder if it is a good idea to keep something going that is already guaranteed to end at a certain point. Like if you've already made up your mind on what will happen in the future, is it best to keep something going that you have at this point in time just for the hell of it, or should you go ahead and end it. Part of me thinks that it should be ended, but then part of me thinks that it should be made the best of while it last. I don't know. No one ever said life was easy. But I'd really appreciate some input on things in general.
Well.. I've basically touched base on just about everything I can think of. I guess I'm gonna go ahead and end this here. I heard that it's good to end things with a quote. Because someone else said it best already. "Life's short, play naked." Ha.
I'm priceless. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| Me and my girlfriend are no more.. it only lasted a little while, maybe it wasn't meant to be.
Aaron I'm with you now. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Hopefully that clarifies a few things for a few people who don't know what's going on. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Life is great, I couldn't be happier. I do want to apologize to everyone for being the way I was. I made a mistake, and now I'm doing everything I can to make it better. I don't really know what I can say. But I just want things back to normal, cause in my opinion, that's how it should be. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Brand New- The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows | | Time: | 09:42 pm | | Current Mood: | content |
|
| Today wasn't really anything out of the ordinary. Woke up kinda late so I ended up having to blow dry my hair and then do the hat thing to keep it down. It takes forever to dry normally. Anyways. School wasn't bad. Talked to Heidi alot. Still trying to decide what's going on this weekend. Friday, I'm going to the game, but after I don't know what I'm doing. Heidi mentioned staying at a friends so, I'll just chill at the house I guess cause I don't know of anything else really.
Work has been interesting. On this pay period, I had a 3 day week. So I may have accumulated about 12-14 hours there, then I'm working on a 6 day week which will be pushing 25-30 hours. It's actually been pretty tiring, but I could use the money so I can't complain. The blisters are nearly healed, and for those who don't know what I'm talking about.. to make the story short, I had about 6 or 7 blisters on my hands from a hot bar that I was messing around on, just kinda swinging and shit. I guess I got what I deserved, but oh well.
I need to find a direction to go with this car. I had originally planned to buy a new cam and intake manifold but that was weeks ago, and some essential purchases have presented themselves. Now I'm just working to get more money, but I don't know if I still want the parts or not. With the money that I'm making, it would be a hefty little buy. I don't know.. It would be a nice power gain, but I don't know if that's really all that necessary any time soon. Winter is slooowly but surely coming, and I need to get some pants and a few long sleeve shirts or something. Parents don't pay for the clothes anymore but they do pay for other things so once again, I can't be complaining. I considered a new job, but I wouldn't know where to start because I'd rather avoid the whole fast food industry, but in this little part of the coast there isn't much else to do. I could try for a job at one of the casinos something of the sort.. maybe valet, but the hours probably suck. Something close to the house would be nice. I don't want to end up wasting more money in gas than needed. Perhaps something in the D'Iberville Walmart area. I think they just opened a new store over there. I know that they are building a theater complex over there, and that would be a really cool job. Right now, that is on top of my list, but that's still quite a ways down the road...
School isn't all that bad, other than the weekly projects in Marine/Aquatic Science and the ear piercing voice of The Rosetti Pants thing... it seems to go pretty well. I thought it was going to be weird having my sister in a class but that actually isn't all that bad. Heidi is in the class too so my attention is usually directed somewhere else. She's really cool, I like her alot.
My Grandmother is visiting for a few days. It's always nice to see her.
Apparently Hurricane Frances is heading in this direction. I don't think there is a definite path projected yet, but from some of the images and predictions I've seen, it looks like it could be an interesting week coming up.
Labor day is Monday.. and of course I have to work. We do get out of school though which is a definite plus, I'll probably get up early and wash the car or something.
I don't know, I guess that's enough insight from me. Hope you enjoyed reading. I'll update again some other time. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 05:07 pm | | Current Mood: | ecstatic |
|
| | Time for a new entry, it's been awhile. Alot has happened, but it is all for the best. I am happier now than I have been in the longest time. Things in life just seem to fall into place really well now. School is going good, and meeting someone new just always seems to make things even better. Curtis told me that I sound like a new man, and that I'm happier than he's seem me in forever. That's really cool to hear. Cause I like how things are right now. Me and Heidi are official now, which is great cause people have been asking. I really like her alot. She is really fun to hang out with and talk to. I don't know. I don't think it can go downhill from here cause things are looking up. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Back to school, back to school.. to prove to dad that I'm not a fool.
Got my lunch packed up, my shoes tied tight, hope I don't get in a fight.
Ooohhhhh. Back to school. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZ.. | | Time: | 10:31 pm | | Current Mood: | tired |
|
| This school thing is boring, wake up, clean up, dress up, go to school, bake, take pictures, go fishing, go home, go to work, eat, go to bed. That's about the extent of my average day. I get paid soon, that will help. Teachers aren't bad. Friends are always around. I dropped one of my favorite cd's in the car and can't find it anymore. It was the All American Rejects. I like that band alot. Now I'm listening to Remelyn's Lost Prophets cd. I'll give it back when I find the AAR cd. The show yesterday was fun. That bands were good.
I'm tired now.. so I'm out. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | The Last Song | | Time: | 12:55 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_boy/sad.gif) uncomfortable |
|
| I've spent the last hour listening to All American Rejects, staring at my ceiling... breaking into tears, and having many thoughts run through my head. There have been thoughts that I don't need to consider because they plain out aren't very smart such as the period of time where inflicting pain to myself seemed like the easiest way to divert the pain. Thoughts of the past.. the good times, the bad times, the people I met, the new people who I've come to consider some of the best friends I could have. Some thoughts weren't the most pleasant, some were pretty nice. But all in all, I really need to decide what is going on with my life, where it is going from here. Am I simply dropping everything and turning the page, starting a chapter in my life with new people, new things, new places? Or am I going to try to continue thinking that this is some innocent naive existence where nothing ever really can go wrong? School is starting, work is tiring and the pay is low, college is right around the corner and I have deadlines that are quickly creeping up on me for that. I don't know what I'm interested in, I don't know where I want to be in five years. I've always been the one who questioned my future and put it off for another day. My dad has been trying to get me started with the whole college thing, but I can't seem to accept that. My mom is always there to listen to me complain about something going wrong or how something mediocre can seem like a drastic life-changing event. Dena is a cool little sister. She is there if I just feel like talking someone's ear off or if I need some advice. She always seemed to be someone I could go to when I needed the girls advice on a situation and how it should be. My friends are... hard to put into words. Curtis, you're a great guy, but you need to get yourself sorted out. I think you should really start looking at your future more than your car. I really don't have anything against you, just.. don't get so far in to something to where you can't get out of it. Aaron, my right hand man. You've always seemed to see eye to eye with me on everything. Don't worry about relationships or feel like you need one. It's gonna work out for you. You know I'm always gonna there for you guys. Austin, Manuel, Chris, Steve, Kyle.. I don't know what I can say to you guys. I haven't experienced as much with you guys, but you still seem to be pretty cool.
I really don't know what I'm doing right now, or where my life is going. Everyday seems to just unfold itself in front of my eyes, and become some repetitive cycle of home, work, friends, drama, lather, rinse and repeat as desired. I guess this is one of those crossroads in life.. The generic teenage highschool confusion. I could use some advice if anyone has some to give, or if anyone knows where to start.. let me know. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| I think I must have missed the memo about everyone having a grudge of some sort..
This is my time to catch up..
I HATE YOU ALL! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | But who's to say that? Maybe this is the only time that I'm actually thinking straight. Maybe this is my best time for thinking and decisions. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | I'm kinda wondering if now is the greatest time for me to make any decisions because I'm kinda drowsy and not thinking completely straight. I wouldn't want to do somthing that I may REGRET. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I was sitting down earlier today and I started to think about what my life would've been like up to this day if I had done something different. Like.. not talk to someone for a first time.. or go somewhere for a first time.. just any small thing. I was wondering if it would've made my life better had I done it differently, or would it have changed at all, or would it have these drastic effects that make my life miserable? | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
themelonpatch's journal